At 16 I visioned that I'll have the career of my dreams, be married with a baby and living in a fabulous house by the age of 26. Did anyone catch that? First and foremost, why was I thinking about being married with a baby at that age? Don't get me wrong I'm happy I wasn't thinking of having a family before graduating college but damn.
No wonder why I never knew how to be single, I've been looking for a husband every since I was 16 and now that I'm 26 and going on 27 in 8 days, I'm nowhere close to being married. Thank goodness!! What a disaster it would be if I committed to another person before committing to myself. Now I'm not saying there is anything wrong with having all of that at 26 or later. I'm just saying... divorce rates are high for some of the silliest reasons. I have no time to be giving anyone a crazy reasons on why "It's just not working out".
Does this mean I regret any of my past relationships? Hell no! I've learned a lot from each of them. I crack myself up on how I use to try and change some of my boyfriends back then. Hey I was on the prow to being married by 26. Who was stopping me? Each time I found "the boy/man of my dreams" I was fixed on going in for the long haul. Even when there was no "official title" I treated the person like they were the only one. Lucky them... silly me. Like I said I knew nothing about being single. There are plenty of things I could've done differently but I guess it wasn't in my plans to do so. I'm happy with my experiences and what matters now is how I love from here on.
Early this year I made a decision to break away from a 5 year relationship which was the best one I've had so far. I feared for a while that I'll may never find someone to love me the same way but right now that's the least of my worries. I know when Love is ready for me again it will show up unexpectedly and this time around there is no rush. I'm taking my time!
Look out... I'm successful, sexy and single. Who gon' check me boo?
xoxo Madame Q
