See You later January, Hello February

Towards the end of each year, many people make a list of what they want to change in the new year. Some list are longer than others but for the most part there is a list. Mines was quite simple, to be sexier than the year before. Yes indeed! I'm not talking about more revealing clothes and higher heels. I'm talking the depth of the soul sexy, something you can't buy but only build. That's the sexy that keeps you going and when stuff gets out of order and upside down, you can kick it right back.  Of course before we can conquer our goals there is always a bump in the road.

Jan 1st came and with out a knock, a heartbreak entered my already crowded house. With no where else to go and no open arms, I let it in, with all it's baggage. Feeling overwhelmed with so many different emotions, I ask myself, how am I going to get my sexy now? A few days into the new month, I was already facing challenges that would change an important part of my life. Asking myself the same questions over and over, replaying the last five years of my life in my head like a song you love but forgotten all the words to. How did I get here? How was I living? I'm breathing but am I really living? I thought my life was ok, I was in love, have my family and friends, a career and my own place. What else did I need? Wait! Did I not ask for a new sexy? Did I think I was going to get it just that easy?

God has a plan for me and I know it's best, he makes no mistakes and gives only blessings. That new found sexy will come with a fight and I'm up for it. As the love month enters, I go in with a open mind and a crowded heart. Let's just hope I have a little room for whoever deserves it.

Hello February!
xoxo Madame Q